Then you have to love those moments that you know you will remember.
6am biking and freezing to death. Getting home bruised and covered in blood. It's okay baby I don't feel anything, it's too cool for my little red soldiers to run screaming. Yesterday I woke up with no memory and no place to stay.
You know it's worth it when you won't be able to forget it. Watch your lovers cut their heads off- pick them up and keep them in your heart forever.
Let's not fuck this up, we only have one shot- really.
There's no such thing as depression here.